26 October 2011

I smile

I wish I could tell the whole world who's making me smile at the moment. But I don't want to jinx it (there's nothing to jinx in the first place, BOO YEAH!).

How I miss the peace of mind someone brings after you talk to them. The late night messages, exchange of thoughts, sharing of whatever you did today just because. The smile upon receiving a sweet message that I can't seem to wipe off my face. How clicking the message alert on your phone or messenger automatically brightens up my day.

Though not constant, I'm very glad I have those moments.

Someday.

03 October 2011

Time to update my fairy tale

I just watched Friends with Benefits if it wasn't obvious enough with the title of this post.

So yes, it's almost the end of the film where the girl realizes she has feelings for the guy and vice versa, blah di blah...

Fast forward to the scene where her mom told her it's time to update her fairy tale. A line I would have to write about eventually on this blog and a girl hooked on the false pretenses of a (American) romantic comedy wishing the same will happen in real life --- my life to be exact.

So there I was, with my mind still playing tricks on me, exiting the movie house with high hopes of creating my love story soon. As I stepped out of the mall, reality sinks in and I'm back to convincing myself that it's just a movie and any similarities to real life are pure coincidences. 

I am a Disney baby, I believe in falling stars and wishing wells. I am a fan of happily-ever-afters and I am still waiting for my Prince Charming. Judge away!

Waiting and waiting... for how long? until when? Only fate knows. So is fate by chance or by choice?

There's a way to find out. I should go out more often. Instead of curling up in bed and watching these shows, which are great by the way, but it doesn't really help with my ultimate goal. The joy I feel after I watch is only short-lived and then I feel sad again.

I should go out and walk. Stop wallowing and just get out there.

It's time to find a good "how we met story". A story I can tell my children and grand kids. Oh, and time to find someone to complete the "we".

Yes, I was stalking that Cal-Carries model.